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You are not
     My child and this is not
          My lover and you will not
                Haunt my dreams
                     Like I've been asking you too
                         Anymore

I want to tell
     A man that I love about
          This life defining
               Time defying moment
                    But I can't because
                         I need to protect
                              The only thing
                                   You ever had
                                        That was ever yours
                                             Your memory
But i do not want
     To create a stigma
          A frightful cautionary area
               Where you are my
                    Dirty Little Secret
                         but I do need a heart strong enough
                              To be able to know
                                   That that's not
                                        Who you are
                                             Who you were
                                                  Who you never came to be